Dear Blogger,
I write this letter to you, to express how disappointed I am with myself. Lately, it have become so heavy to bear.
The burden so heavy put on my shoulders or maybe I have put on my unable shoulders. The cares and worries of life, work family or friend. I want you to know that time has come and I now have grown so weary to bear it anymore. A brother here, a sister there,a cousin here and a friend there........................all their problems with the kindest of heart and best of my motive; to see an orderly and better world where struggles and frustrations are reduced. But what have I done......in the process, I have reduced myself into a walking structure; forever with aches from the head to the back.Is that what they call stress, depression. Happiness no longer knows my doorstep. Weight is always on the run for lack of nutritional motivation.......Yes, clothes have agreed to disagree to fit me any longer, till their friend weight is back.My My, help me dear blogger. Is this the purpose driven life that all the mankind were created to live? We work so had and yet there is nothing to show for it. I now agree with the wise Councillor Dr. Solomon- you were right sir! Everything is indeed vanity of vanity. I have also found out the truthfulness of your assertion that more money means more mouths to fit.
Another truth is that, in the world we live in today..you can never have every solution to the many problems that bedevil us. It is indeed a proven reality that, the more you attempt to solve people's problems..the more they become.I quote the wise again, they who said that...Never trouble trouble before trouble troubles you.
Is this what I have done? Why can't I find the strength in emotions, ideas, and action as I was before? Where did my zest for life go too? Why more enemies than friends now seem to surround me. Is there anything wrong to be ambitious in life? Honestly Mr. Life....I have labored to find the essence of my existence, and the purpose of my creation. The moment I found them, the more passionate I became to ensure I live in accordance. Anyone who cares to understand this?
Dear blogger.......I have now made a resolution, to careless for the sake of my own happiness. I don wanna die young in the quest to make every one happy. Time has come to put my interests first as well. For many years, I have always rendered an ear, a helping hand even to the point of self-sacrifice. I have read many books and believed in their teachings, but now i wanna live on the true teachings of life itself.Forgive me my soul if I error in this..................But honestly, I long for tranquility,order, happiness , joy, and the me life. I don wannabe selfish, but the selflessness is not well becoming. Now is the time to bite what we can chew, taking one step each moment.......so long as we are moving forward.Life is short....very short. Time to make everything count, and to stop counting on everyone or everything.
Thank you for listening me out, I hope to find a new solace in life...................................Thy wilt Lord be done!
